Wolf Can Fly, Too

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So, I was working on the research project last night when I ran into a dead end. Everything was going on fine until I start running the simulation in Chien Model. Well, after that the whole simulation crashed and burnt, and I'm still left here puzzled on what went wrong. I tried complaining about my research to my gf, but she just start calling me nerd and killed the conversation = =". I know I'm nerdy and everything and I'm proud of it =D. Hey, don't give me that look like I'm crazy, AE is a subject that requires passion to stay in. Anyway, I'm still working hard on my project, so I might not be able to write for a while. On the other thought, I might as well just bitch about my work over here, since no one I know knows this blog XD.
Just an after thought, I just heard this song not long ago and it stuck in my head ever since, nice song really, http://youtube.com/watch?v=VGSm7bFO-uU

話說最近不知道為什麼突然想吃鐵板麵,
不過,在我們這個鳥不生蛋的小鎮當然是不可能找的到的...

For some reason, I was totally out of it last afternoon. I wasn't paying attention to what I was doing, didn't took down the simulation number that I was doing, and have to go through the whole simulation files to figure out what I was doing, and I book a flight to PIT before checking the date and time. I guess being in the lab for so long took a toll on me, given that I didn't return home until 2am last night. It's not like I enjoy staying up late. The truth is that there's a meeting this morning, and I don't really have much to show to my boss. So...gotta get back to work again I guess. Chao!

終於注意到夏天跟冬天的當季水果不一樣了... = ="
話說前幾天去超級市場補充糧食...

突然發現,一年又過了...
過的好快...想想參加團契也只有一年的時間,

話說,住在美國中西部,似乎除了玉米和黃豆以外沒有其他的作物了...
所以,這個周末我們住的城市舉辦了一年一度的甜玉米節,

...昨天晚上發生了一件很神奇的事情...
話說昨天晚上,我剛從團契朋友家那邊拿了一箱今天活動要用的東西回家...

It's kind of weird how being an engineer sort of takes the humanity out of you. We were trained to be objective, impersonal, rely on hard data, and question every single assumption, every guess work. It never occurred to me that the very live I was training to live is slowly pulling me away from people. You see, a human being cannot survive and retain his/her humanity without some sort of human interaction, and that is exactly what being an engineering graduate student is deprived of. I did not realize the severity of the situation until I found out that a close relative of a friend of mine, who is like a big sister to me, has recently passed away. I could not, for the life of me, think of any word of comfort that I can say to her other than “I’m sorry”. I guess I simply lost the ability to offer comforting words throughout the years. Graduate school kind of take the life and dream out of people, there’s always a project to finish, a deadline to meet, homework to keep up with, and conferences to prepare.

I have heard that there are people who can offer comfort to others through words alone. I wish I can do that, since I am so far away from all my family and friends. There is so little you can do when you are so far away. I just wish I can be right there for her, but all I can do is a few lines on MSN. Life sucks, being a graduate student in engineering sucks, but there’s nothing I can do about it, so I’ll just stop complaining and go back to work, and try to think of something to say to her when I finally find free time.