Wolf Can Fly, Too

It has been a long long while since my last entry. A lot has happened, a lot has changed, and I guess I do have some explaining to do, at least for those who actually read this blog.

First of all, I'd like to ask you to congratulate me on my newly gained freedom of being single again. Life before this seems so remote, so, strange, busy, frustrating, whatever, comparing to what I have right now. For my own good, I would distant myself from any possible relationship for a while, maybe two years, maybe more.

Life has not been a lot different comparing to before graduation, partly because I haven't found a full time job yet. I have never thought that finding R&D job in the US would be so difficult for an international student, there are red tapes everywhere, and a lot of the jobs simply does not hire internationals. It might change for the better in the next few years after the US presidential election, but I won't be around for that long. For now, I will probably spend most of my OPT session doing "contract" work for my former adviser.

Having more free time on hand does has its advantage, though. I spent a lot more time chatting with friends and people from my fellowship, and that, in turn, helped me to pull myself back together from the emotional wrack I was in.

She and I, well, are two totally different kind of person, and the longer we have been together, the more stressful out relationship became. I guess it was just the normal course of life, and two people with such different personalities are bound to go their own way.

I have often joked that I was a Sunday Christian, and now, well, I am one, actually going to Church on Sunday for a change. It's kind of a new experience, but I bet I will get used to it someday, maybe before I leave Champaign, maybe after. There's certain things that we cannot control, that only God/Allah/Buddhas/Whatever is up there controlling out destiny would know. But I know I will be ready, ready for whatever challenge that is laying before me.